An Amazing Woman In my life

My Grandmother

Living to Love

I had forgotten in the midst of falling for someone that, if they aren't participating in the relationship that you could see being so wonderful, well don't give up but let things be. I finally took the idea of what could be out of the equation and I'm happier. I'm not happier they're not in my life the way I thought but, eventually, its going to be in a place that I'll be okay. Is it strange that it makes me happy? What makes me even more happy? The abundant blessings that I have been given. The amazing desire to want what God's for me.

Never write a letter while you are angry. ~Chinese Proverb

Right.. I'll blog angry instead. So much for love. Thank God faith hasn't changed. Though, it's all contradicting at the moment..

Just when I thought things would be easier, it's like high school all over again. Except now, I'm 23 and trying more now than ever to move on from silly, petty fights about parties and emotional drama that, if other people want to be involved with it (people you care about) still causes more damage than necessary. I hate the feeling of not knowing if I have the right to be upset or really care about certain situations that have to do with loved ones. Right now, I refuse to care but because I'm acknowledging the fact that I don't want to care says  that I do care.

I hate this. Hate was not suppose to be part of this blog.

For all those who are suffering with things going on in the world. My prayers are with you. Any cross I can bare for you, I pray that God send it to me instead.

GSofia